This I think is gonna be one of those deals where I’m gonna have to quietly ignore the comments sections on the TLC video for my own sanity, due to speculation on my sincerity at the end of the video and how I define addiction and alcoholism. The first point is something I’ve had to deal with before with my documentary, and with that I laid myself out WAY more on the line so hey, at this point I’m used to people questioning the sincerity of it, or downright trolling it. Don’t get me wrong, it isn’t terribly common, but it happens, and I think the major reason people shy away from the vulnerability of sharing sincere emotion is because it really kinda hurts when people question it.
On that point I’ll just say this; yeah, at this point in time, almost ten years after she died, it hits me more than it ever has. I don’t know why this point in time is the hittin’ time, but there ya go. I got weepy and emotional a LOT during the research of this beast. I didn’t even start to mention that the footage of Left Eye dying is floating around the nets and quite easy to find. No, really.
But on the point of alcoholism there seems to be much more dissent; as a longtime Loveline listener, I’ve always adhered to the Dr. Drew school of thought on the matter, and he consistently refers to addiction as a disease, including a genetic predisposition at that. Having quite a bit of experience with alcoholics in my family and, hell, being a low level addict myself, yes, addiction is a disease, just like depression, just like bipolar disorder. It is often a fatal disease, as Club 27 teaches us.
There was a LOT of my little ramble at the end that I cut out that makes it a bit less tenuous, and hell, that shit was hard to edit. But let me make this clear; no one who succumbs to addiction deserves ridicule. One of the key prerequisites for addiction is a certain level of Shit one has gone through that feeds the addiction, be it unavailable parents or a shitty job or a history of sexual or physical abuse (that’s usually the most common)- no true addict has a happy life.
And Amy Winehouse is no exception. Alcoholism never comes alone- it’s usually accompanied with a healthy dose of depression. She was ill, whatever was wrong in her head, and for whatever reason she never had an incentive to turn her life around. Most people who die from their addictions don’t. But they don’t deserve ridicule; they just didn’t conquer those demons in time.
I must assume that anyone who looks down on addicts who died as weaklings who deserved it, well, they just haven’t been alive for very long. Either that or they enjoy a good, healthy superiority complex.
That’s me being charitable.